I will add that when someone who had been at the party recounted some of my sloppy embarrassing behavior and laughed about it, I was pretty angry.

I’ve never been a sloppy drunk. I’m a mean drunk. I just get super cynical when I’ve drank too much.

I’ve never been the kind to get “flirty”. I’m asexual. So a loss of social inhibition isn’t going to make me sexual. But the opposite.

People who have partied with me before know me. They should have questioned why I was acting so unusual. I mean , eventually someone did. And took me home.

But I was so disappointed and unhappy that these supposed friends let me go on like that and no one stepped in to say “that’s not how Dani is, maybe she needs some water and a ride home”.

Maybe my standards and expectations were too high. But I never partied with those people again.