Not at all! Eclectic belief structures are perfectly normal.

There are thousands of religious sects among each larger religion, so even within a “single” religion, beliefs vary so greatly that not even everyone of the “same” religion sees everyone else on the “same” religion is actually the same.

Need on what you said, either a Christian Mysticism or Christian-Pagan-Syncratic belief isn’t even unique to you. Others feel the same way.