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Skankhunt420@sh.itjust.works 2 weeks agoHave you ever had a bad time on it?
I know a lot of people that say this about using it to heal and stuff and man from my perspective I’m like how!?
Have you ever had a panic attack type of situation on it? If so how do you channel that into something healing? I always just feel so broken down and depressed at the end of trips like that.
Do you pair it with anything that helps? I used to enjoy it so much man and have explosively good times on it but that doesn’t seem to happen anymore now I just worry about shit.
captainlezbian@lemmy.world 2 weeks ago
I was in my mid 20s at the time lol, so it may be that I was young. But I was also actively practicing CBT at the time and trying to fix my mind.
I’ve never had a trip that was unproductively bad, but I’ve also never had a trip that was easy and all fun (n is in the single digits though). All of them fit somewhere in the “challenging” category where a portion of it was very unpleasant, but ultimately constructive.
My worst was before I started the CBT and was with my now ex around the beginning of the end of the relationship. It was mostly trying to show me that we’d grown incompatible. The lessons of the rest were either similar “hey you’re deliberately ignoring something with someone in your life who you happen to be tripping with”, or “here’s some bullshit you’ve been on and it’s time to confront it and actually change.”
Those trips aren’t easy, and they aren’t necessarily relaxing. They’re more comparable to an emotional marathon or some other physical challenge made emotional. And I think part of what’s vital is I go in accepting that I can change and part of my goal is change. The suck is necessary to achieve the goal. A big part of how they worked was actually forcing me to face shit. The only way out was through, and by the end a self destructive behavior or thought pattern was firmly something I didn’t want to participate in anymore.
So yeah I guess learning meditation techniques and how to hamper panic attacks and channel the energy they come with into useful and constructive energy is probably the crux of it though. My cbt was largely focused on that and breaking the destructive habits I learned from cptsd.
Oh also sex on the come up was always nice.