Feeling super guilty that cats are in shelters while I have a ‘vacancy’. Especially the seniors in kill shelters. There’s a long term shelter cat at the Lost Dogs Home for $20, her name is Cookie. But I’m really not feeling emotionally ready for another cat and am worried about the costs. Especially if it was another senior or special needs cat that would be my first choice but need a lot of vet care. I don’t know. I really need to be ready for another pet and I am not. I don’t know when I’m ever going to be. I’m still missing Melbcat and just want her back.