You matter and you’re valuable, no matter what crap happens

If it’s true that your relationship with food isn’t the greatest, I also suggest seeking professional help, if that’s an option right now. In Germany there are assisted living facilities for women with debilitating eating disorders that the state pays for. And some of them are actually really good. I’d think if you’re in the UK, they probably exist there as well, if walk-in therapy isn’t enough.

Truly, wish you well.