thx a lot, for pointingout these ressources!

as for the why: i just realised that i really do view music as a kind of language, something that can be written down, realised acoustically and (with practice) be understood. that might be a big misconception. but my primary driver is to get a better understanding of what’s happening in music in general. just like speaking helps in learning a language, i thought, imitating music should help to learn music. that’s maybe why i don’t really care for the specific instrument … it’s rather instrumental.

i wouldn’t play with others, or for others. there’s not even a style i’d prefer, its just the basic understanding outside of a vague emotional reaction. i can’t tell the difference between a chord and a single note. in many cases not even what note is higher. and i feel like that’s failure? or at least a shame.

maybe i need some elementary school level lessons.