XD perhaps, I do feel like the interactive nature of videogames changes things a bit, and I didn’t try gaming until I was a (young) adult, so idk how I would have handled it as a kid.

I did have completely unrestricted access to media from like 12 yrs old on, and blood and gore never really fazed me much in fiction.

Maybe the gained experience from life is what makes those things (violence, catastrophe, etc) more realistic and thus horrific.