again, this isn’t an attack on you specifically, i’m just explaining why i can no longer see it as anything other than malice.
just had this shit appear on my timeline. not old news, he’s doing this shit again. and people in the comments section CHEER for this.
i’m seeing this after i just contacted a suspicion of cancer clinic about the uterus i have that is the size it would be if i were pregnant and has not stopped bleeding since january 6th, that TWO radiologists - MDs - have said “hey this looks like cancer and needs to be biopsied” and my obgyn is just sitting on her dickhole because cancer is too rare for someone my age. i also only know of this clinic because my aunt - who i share a lot of medical conditions with - currently has fallopian tube cancer.
the clinic asked if she was an obgyn or an obgyn-onc and when i said obgyn they weren’t surprised.
but then they said i can’t see them without a referral from my primary.
so i need to hope my primary has a reason to feel my obgyn is an idiot and i am deserving of said referral.
otherwise, my obgyn went on maternity leave in the spring, and after my recent ultrasound showing shit getting way worse and spreading, i have now been referred to another obgyn that i will see on january 16th to discuss a biopsy. and that obgyn is currently on vacation until january 1st, so even see can’t just look at my ultrasound and say “you know what? maybe this shouldn’t wait”
i’m sick, been bleeding for a year, my body struggles with keeping nutrients at baseline, im losing nutrients constantly, im weak, there’s a chance i’ve got cancer stealing my nutrients now and… they’re celebrating that he’s going out of his way to make me, and people like me, starve.
good people don’t do that.
pieland@piefed.social 1 day ago
i’m not trying to be rude or disrespectful, but i can no longer believe in fully functioning brains or corporate propaganda.
i’ve received so much abuse for being sick because of people who worship this system. that their tax dollars are paying for a “lazy fuck” like me.
before i became this sick i got a full ride to a genetics program at one of the top schools in the world and even while getting sicker i had a lot of extreme successes until i became almost completely bed-bound.
i have autism, adhd, and developmental delays and i am very insecure about being “stupid” and weak, and that has made being a workaholic my identity, and it has made it a requirement for me to be successful because i struggle to love myself otherwise. i always have the need to prove to others and myself that i’m worthy of something. to lose all of that has been extremely traumatic, and society regularly puts salt on the wound. they don’t care what i’ve done. they care that it’s a fact that i have “chosen” to be lazy now and i am stealing their hard earned tax dollars.
most of my family shit talks me. i have lost friends. just this month a former friend who pretended to be supportive threw it in my face, suicide baited me, and told me i was a waste of space.
i literal have a caregiver from the department of rehab as part of a program from preventing me from going to a nursing home. they do not take mental illness into consideration. i was approved on physical illness alone. the interview to go over my health issues took two hours. i was told it normally never exceeded 45 minutes. and i nearly died years waiting to be approved for this as well.
i also haven’t been approved for disability (which i know, wild, the government decided im sick enough to be in a nursing home but also i can work? ok), so i live off of $500 a month from the part of my family that has a soul. as you can imagine, that does not go very far. and people don’t realize that there are a lot of things medicaid does not cover that sick people still need to pay for to live. i also have a senior cat with medical needs that are getting more expensive.
i keep begging my body not to die because she needs me. my body keeps begging me to die.
but tldr, after what i’ve been through, i really don’t like those people anymore or think they have a soul.
Zoomboingding@lemmy.world 1 day ago
We live in a world too full of heartless people. You matter, regardless of your accomplishments, medical status, or capacity to contribute to capitalism. I don’t know why anyone would have difficulty seeing that. Add my voice to yours when addressing your body’s wishes.
Thank you for sharing your experiences and the video above. I’ve had generally positive experiences with healthcare here in the US, and it’s tragic so many people have stories like these. I hope you’re at least getting better care than the mom in the video.