Well, when you are approached by someone who doesn’t read nor understand the conversation or arguments brought forth, who then argues with you regarding said topic and situations - in which you have personal experience with - and who reiterates the same argument that is based on flawed data and assumptions, causing you to stay up for several hours as you try and explain the situation and points, while you grow more and more frustrated (see all points ststed above)… and at the conclusion of the conversation, they have added no value nor insight to the original discussion which, again, they didn’t fully understand… you let me know at what stage you’d be a bit frustrated.

Myself, I give people waaayyyyyyy too much credit, leeway, benefit of the doubt. Way too much. And most of the time, yeah, it’s a misunderstanding, they appreciate the kindness, everyone is happy. But others, it’s just malace, trying to harm me, break me.

I can be the nicest guy in the world, and people will still say I’m an asshole because they disagree with something, or they don’t understand what my core statements are, or any other number of reasons. I used to be that way, nice to everyone all the time, even those who used me, exploited me, manipulated me. I stopped being a pushover after I suffered my stroke, effectively losing function of half my body. After that, nah, not anymore. I wasted my whole life up until that point kissing behinds and getting shit in return. I don’t do that anymore.

I don’t care if you dislike me. I don’t care what you think about me in any capacity, frankly. It would all be wrong anyway, so why get worked up over it. But what I’ve learned in the twilight hours of this morning, is that all your aggravation pointed at me, isn’t my fault. And that is so… relaxing. Comforting.

Anyway, I’m finally off to bed now. The sun is rising, and I’m exhausted.