I went through the same exact thing somewhat ““recently”” after realizing reforms aren’t gonna do jack shit, media creating narratives obfuscating reality and this obfuscation of reality being heavily bought into by people both online and irl.

You’re likely getting radicalized leftward, and this emotion and panic is a temporary part of it. It has happened to me and to others in the past, but this intense feeling eventually passes.

What helped me personally in the later stages was getting a coherent worldview, reading and studying some political theory so you can actually spot what doesn’t fit in the news and in the comments, know what’s actually in your interest to support rather than falling for some general moralizations, etc.

I’m down to talk more about it if you need it, this can really be hard to go through alone (speaking from experience).