karthnemesis

@karthnemesis@leminal.space

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Are there any wannabe mods or know how to be mods willing to do a community with me?⁩ ⁨⁨3⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  People who do this professionally, or even as a volunteer, receive training for a reason. It is likely one could hurt more than help, despite the best intentions.

  Maybe try signing up for a hotline? They’ll give you the training required to at least give a solid attempt as well as more rationally limit the amount of people you feel obligated to handle.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨Is there a way to hide posts that take you to another site?⁩ ⁨⁨3⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  At least on my instance, the top right hand corner on all thumbnails has a little symbol that shows if it is a “link picture” or an “expandable picture.”

  The link symbol looks like a box with an arrow, the picture symbol is the generic white outline hills and sun symbol it seems like many places use for images.

  Doesn’t really answer your question directly, but it might help?

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨How to know you'll turn out trans?⁩ ⁨⁨3⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  If I wrote out a list of things I am interested in regarding my appearance that are gendered by society, I would think I was “a girl.” However, in practice, it was incredibly bad for me and being forced as such was a constant drain on me.

  None of these stories are proof, but slowly realizing the sheer number of them from my past did indicate exploring was worthwhile:

  • I could not see myself growing into an old woman. I used to think that was only because I did not think I would live long enough to be as such.
    But the fact is, when first asked about it, the thought of growing into an old man actually sounded a bit nice.
  • I told every boyfriend I have ever had that I “might be trans” and asked them if they’d still stay with me as a man. It was very serious and very nonserious all at the same time.
  • I clung to masculine presentation, even if it often still felt wrong, because “masculine woman” felt closer to the “femme genderfluid man” I somewhat unconsciously wanted to be than "feminine woman."
  • When I first played a man in a TTRPG game, it was incredibly fun in a way that is hard to describe. Something like, just… comfortable, for the first time.
  • In preschool I demanded that the teachers use a male name and refer to me in character with male pronouns. This was not a one-off occurrence. I was very upset when they did not comply.
  • When I was older, when people mistook me for a man I would feel relief. When they “corrected” themselves I would go back to being miserable.
  • People using “ma’am” on me would make me extremely uncomfortable. Hearing the word “she” used for me made me oddly angry.
  • I hated people looking at me and perceiving me, and, worst of all, desiring me.

  All of these were difficult to see at the time. Difficult to see all at the same time. It is hard to tell if you are miserable when you are constantly miserable. It takes perspective to put it all together. It takes self-examination, experimentation, experience. You are stuck in your own head, after all.

  I did not feel like I was in the wrong body. I felt like I was trapped in expectations of what I could do to my body.

  I won’t regret any of it even if I suddenly decide to “transition back.” My life is a journey and I will do whatever feels right for me. My body is my own. It’s done me so much good to be able to explore who I am.

  My suggestion to those questioning is generally to “try out” your gender of choice somewhere completely inconsequential. Video games, a temporary account, etc. Quietly following trans spaces for a while can give some perspective as well.

  I don’t care if I “know for certain” that I’m trans. I think trying to answer that question as some kind of solid certainty can often run counter to the entirety of being trans.

  I’m happier in a testosterone-based system, I am comfortable in a way that I never was, and life feels like I have a future now. I made changes that made my life better, and only changes that made my life better.

  Trans just happens to be an accurate label. Labels are tools, shortcuts in communication. Not prisons.

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨What's up with all the "___punk" stuff?⁩ ⁨⁨4⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  What on earth is crust-punk by the way?

  music genre:
  punk rock but with extreme metal elements, bassy and dirty (also known as stenchcore)

  a type of punk person: panhandling, squatting, and/or homeless punk person who is homeless often by choice (also known as gutter punks)

  (they also tend to be associated with each other)

• ⁨Comment⁩ on ⁨What's up with all the "___punk" stuff?⁩ ⁨⁨4⁩ ⁨months⁩ ago⁩:

  another example of an “older” -punk, if it interests anyone, is splatterpunk, used primarily in the 80’s ^^

  definitely rebellious counterculture in its roots as well. very simplified summary is some authors felt stifled that horror was increasingly getting very “literary” and threw everything extreme at the wall

  (decent article from 1991 explaining it: here )