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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/daisythrow on 2023-10-01 04:38:19.
I’m turning 28 in 2 months and god I hate it here!!! This is, by far, the worst developmental stage ever. I am one stressful life event away from taking a grippy sock vacation. I am physically the worst I’ve ever looked, I’m broke because I switched careers in 2020, I have zero friends, I have no idea who I am or what I want, and my mental health sucks. I live in a landlord special, old apartment because it’s the only thing I can afford in this expensive city that I don’t even like but I have to live in because this is the only place in the country where my partner can work in his field!
It seems like 85% of everyone I know is doing better than I am. I feel so lost and left behind. I feel like I had so many dreams that are just turning to dust (Sylvia Plath fig tree analogy, anyone?) the older I get. And the worst part is that I KNOW that I feel this way because of the insane expectations society puts on women combined with the fact that when you turn 30 as a woman, public opinion treats you as if your life is over.
I am so tired. I want to run away to live in a cabin in the middle of nowhere and throw my phone into the ocean. I want to wake up tomorrow and be 15 again with all the knowledge I have now. I want a different reality than the one I created for myself.
Can anyone else out there alone on this Saturday night relate? Lay it all out there and vent in the comments, friends💗