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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/ceeleesmee on 2023-09-07 21:06:06.

TW; SA

My partner and I just moved to a new neighborhood a few days ago. I was taking my dog for our first walk last night to get to know the area, and about 5 minutes into the walk I see a man working construction on a house nearby. My heart dropped into my stomach, he turned and looked at us, and it was him. 10 years ago I was at a friends party at her house, I was 19 years old and a virgin. I drank way too much too quickly and went inside sick and passed out. I woke up to her older brother on top of me, inside of me, having sex with my sleeping body. I asked him to stop, I remember saying please stop I’m a virgin, and all he said was “too late.” That’s all I can remember. I don’t know if he took pictures of me naked, I don’t know if anyone else came in the room and took a turn, I just don’t know what happened and it makes me sick to my stomach. I got home from the walk and had a panic attack and cried and vomited and shook for hours. I fucking hate that he can still make me feel that way, like I’m 19 and a worthless piece of meat he used and discarded. I can’t even walk my dog now because I’m worried he’s going to be building other houses around the neighborhood. Has anyone else run into someone who assaulted them and had an extremely visceral reaction? Fuck I hate this :(