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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/Classic-Coat6523 on 2023-09-03 06:17:40.
I grew up severely shy in an abusive family. They used it to isolate me but it’s way more complicated than that. My family was sociopathic. They never came across as normal to me but a lot are a lot more apparently “ajusted.” They were just enabling of abuse, unable or unwilling to recognize it, and really vicious when it came to me in particular.
Through the years, the little kids in my family were kind of evil. The way I had it, they were taught to be disparaging and narcissistic. They’re victims too but they possibly just think it was funny or that I deserved it.
They destroyed my life. I’m 31 and feel like I never had anything normal. I don’t want to post this on a support sub because I fear people just sort of identifying but possibly making me feel hopeless or like things can’t get better.
How can I move forward and feel deserving of friends or relationships when I was always repeated like nothing and like I earned it?