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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/Pebbles023 on 2023-08-30 10:56:52.
I haven’t asked him about jt because we’ve been in a tough spot and he’s said he wants to talk honestly on this trip. Idk if he’s going to come clean, and I can’t tell if he’s met anyone, although if he hasn’t it’s not for lack of trying. I know he’s bi and that’s not the problem.
We haven’t been intimate since the first weekend of July, and the oldest message I found is from like 4 days after that. If he’s been distant because he needs some penis we could’ve talked about it and I would’ve been ok with finding a solution a threesome or even a hall pass but he didn’t feel like he could talk to me and instead decided to sneak around and even try and meet someone the literal first day I was out of town with a friend. Like 4 or 5 hours after we left. Idk what to do. We’ve talked about other things and I said sometimes I feel like he’s cheating but I know he wouldn’t because it messed his family up and he just sat there and reassured me he wasn’t and hasn’t. Idk if he’s outright lying or trying to split hairs by reasoning with himself that exchanging photos and videos and trying to meet but not actually meeting isn’t actually cheating.
I genuinely don’t think I can date again after this, and even if I did how could I trust anyone? This is my first time being cheated on that I know of and maybe I’m being dramatic saying I can’t trust anyone else but I was ready to move him with me for my new job and support him til he can get on his feet in the new place. We joked about marriage and talked about kids names. We used to read each others minds and explore so many things together.
I guess I’m just looking for some kind words, because I thought this guy was it. But all my feelings are dead, I feel like I’m sleeping next to a stranger and it hurts so much.