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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/bluepidgen on 2023-08-25 14:17:03.
This is my first post, I guess it’s more of a vent but if anyone has any advice that would be great.
During the summer, I woke up to my friend sexually assualting me. I wanted it to go away and pretend like nothing happened but a couple days after that I tried talking to him about it. He said he didn’t remember what happened but was truly sorry and guilty for what he had done. He also said that the only thing he remembers was waking up and MY hand was on his dick. He seemed so sincere that I started to question whether it actually happened. I told my boyfriend, and he was furious and said I was being gaslit. I told other people but they also seemed to question the situation except for my best friend, she believed me.
Now we’re back on campus and he still refuses to admit it. He offered to leave the friend group or leave events if I asked him to, and he said he was truly sorry and wanted to do anything to fix it. This makes me doubt myself so much but I know what happened. How can he be so genuine and sincere? It makes me question everything but it collides so much with my memory of what happened that it puts me into so much distress. I was planning to tell the rest of the friend group what happened but he makes it so difficult to do so.
Is it actually possible he doesn’t remember what happened? Or is he just a really good manipulator? How can I stop doubting myself?