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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/ExplanationNo3031 on 2023-08-11 21:07:39.

I am in the middle of a divorce. I asked for one in February and March. I had him served in April. We talked about keeping things amicable and living in the same house so we could still see the kids every day. For the most part everything has been ok. I walk on eggshells, but the divorce is moving forward.

My STBXH is an ok guy. Everyone loves him and doesn’t understand why I asked for a divorce. On paper, I’m the selfish bitch who is destroying my family. He had a vasectomy not even 6 months before I served him papers.

I’ve started to realize he’s not such a nice guy. Maybe he never was. Maybe the divorce has pushed him over the edge. He talks over me a lot. His mood shifts so drastically I don’t know what version I’m getting. He’ll intentionally make me mad and then act like I’m a crazy person. And now, I’m pretty sure he’s sexually assaulting me.

It feels weird to type that out. I must be crazy or leading him on? He’ll wait until I’m out of it (had a few drinks, exhausted, …) And then he’ll start touching me. I’ve made it clear that I don’t want rubbed but he’ll do it anyway.

Last night I had a fever that spiked so bad out of no where. I was delirious with sickness. He said I want to comfort you. I said no, it’s alright I don’t need it. He waited until I was out of my mind sick. Came into my room and rubbed me. I had a fever where everything hurt just from laying. He was rough, I have bruises today. I laid there hoping if he thought I was asleep, he’d go away. He didn’t.

I can’t tell anyone. No one would believe me. I can’t risk him not signing the divorce papers. I’m so full of shame. Like I was asking for it or I should have be more vocal about saying no.