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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/heftyheftybag on 2023-08-06 02:17:11.
My boyfriend is toxic. I got with him when I was very young and never had a relationship before him. I ignored a lot of red flags, mostly because I didn’t know any better. I live far away from family, I don’t really have any friends, though not for lack of trying, and he’s the only person I hang out with on a day to day basis. Because of things that he’s said to me, I’m nervous about making any of my own decisions. I’m nervous about doing anything on my own. I feel extremely lonely and isolated, and I can’t afford to live on my own. Yet the longer I stay, the more resentment and anger that I feel. I don’t know what to do. Has anybody else been through this and what did you do? The fucked up part is even when he says awful things, I always have this thought that I’m actually wrong, that maybe I misunderstood something, and I end up apologizing when I probably shouldn’t. And he’s not shitty all of the time. Either way I hate my life.