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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/Glittering-Lead-007 on 2023-08-03 04:34:22.
I met a guy on a dating app and we chatted there for a couple weeks. Everything on my profile indicated that I was not interested in casual sex at all and one night I freaked out because a random dude sent me a date rape fantasy out of nowhere and I was so upset I was even crying about it. Right after that happened the guy I liked messaged me on the app asking what I was doing and I told him crying because of the rape message and I even sent him a screen shot of the message and told him I was getting off the app entirely and never going on a dating app ever again. He sent me his phone number before I deleted the app and we chatted thru text for another week or so before going on a casual date playing Bingo at a bar. Everything leading up to the date was super cute and sweet in the texts. The short date was fun but nothing really came of it. Before the date we started following each other on Instagram so I kinda got to see more about him and he seemed cool. A few weeks later he invited me over to his place. I liked him and he knew it because I told him a couple of times before he invited me over. But I was only at his place for like 10 minutes and he was all over me taking my clothes off which I was participating in and never said no but after like 5 minutes I was definitely a little scared because he seemed kind of forceful and I felt like his demeanor changed too. I even said wow you’re not wasting any time are u. Then he pretty much threw me on his bed and had incredibly aggressive sex with me. I don’t really remember it much except that I wasn’t expecting it to be that way. The one thought I do remember thinking is I couldn’t tell if he was just an experienced dude who wanted to impress me too much or if he was assaulting me. Again I never said no but I have never been even remotely scared like that ever before. I acted totally normal tho I guess. After he finished he pretty much fell asleep and acted like I wasn’t there anymore. But before he fell asleep I did say to him that he hurt me. I seriously wasn’t even there long enough to ask him if I could use the bathroom and when I got home I was still bleeding. Not a lot, but I’ve never bled from sex before ever. The next day I texted him and he didn’t write back. I finally got him to reply to me for about a week but then he just stopped replying and never answered again. So yes ultimately I did get rejected but I felt like something was off BEFORE that happened. I definitely did not go over to his place to have sex within the first ten minutes of being there and then be sent home bleeding an hour later. This is really bothering me, because I don’t think he liked me at all and just called me over to do that and make me feel destroyed about it afterwards. Of course it’s humiliating to be rejected, but I’m not telling this story because I was distraught about being rejected afterwards (even tho I am distraught and I was rejected) but I’m telling it because I was actually confused and even fearful at the time it happened. Now I feel like he only called me over with the intent to reject me immediately anyway. I’ve never felt so violated, even tho I never said no. He did push me around a little and slapped me a few times which made me scared too and it all happened so fast. How can I get over this? It’s not like I’m saying he raped me or something, but there was something not right about it. Are some guys just predators and I’m a fool? Do some girls have sex immediately like that and he thought I was one of them? I don’t get it because I’ve never been traumatized by something like this before. It was just borderline weird. The guy owns multiple chainsaws and told me he was reading American Psycho.