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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/daily_dose_of_hype on 2023-07-30 08:13:16.
I’m 18 now and have never stopped revisiting that day but it’s finally dawned on me that that’s how I should be describing that experience.
He was 13 at the time, and spent a lot of time doing sketchy computer activities, which I’m sure influenced his actions. We were both home sick from school but he was old enough that my parents left me alone with him to watch me.
I remember being happy because I was an 8 year old getting to play video games with my brother instead of being at school. He asked me to go to my room with him, and I remember being confused, and then him asking me if I wanted to experience the best feeling ever. I asked him what it was. He told me to take my clothes off and get onto my bed.
I had no idea what was actually going on but I remember feeling very uneasy and I knew I shouldn’t go along with it.
I said no and ran out of the room. We ended up just playing video games again, and he asked me if I was ‘sure I didn’t want to try, because people say it’s the best feeling in the world’. I remember him saying that specifically, and I know that he got that from something he read online, but it’s concerning that he could be so easily influenced to do something like this. I spent the rest of the day with the sinking feeling I should tell my parents when they got home, but not sure if I would be able to or if they would believe me.
The last part of that day I remember explicitly was my mom getting home from work and immediately asking what was wrong because she could tell I was upset. I burst into tears.
I tried to explain it to her the best I could, and she questioned my brother. He made up some bullshit story about me being confused and what actually happened was he was tickling me and I started taking my clothes off, which the more that I think about as I am older, I’m surprised my mom believed him at the time. I guess maybe she didn’t want to think that her son could do something like this.
We’ve never talked about it since that day. I have a good relationship with my brother but I’ve never fully trusted him. I guess I always thought if I brought it up again my mom wouldn’t remember and wouldn’t believe me, or it would mess up any relationship we have. I have a sister but I don’t think she knows and I wouldn’t want to mess up her relationship with my brother either, but I now wonder if he ever tried anything with her.