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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/SevereFlorality on 2023-07-29 12:52:28.
I’m 16. I’m generally speaking an unemotional person (not in a quirky way or whatever, but I’m not empathetic and I am less sensitive than an average person, it kins of makes me insecured actually). The switch when my period comes is always fucking excruciating. I suddenly want to cry out of nowhere. which is very annoying to me because I hate when I can’t rationalise my emotions. My mother is kind of a bitch and I learned to not care about this, but I become very sensitive to whatever she says to me during this time.
Those are the more normal symptoms, I guess. But something that is weird to me is that I straight up become suicidal. I sometimes have suicidal ideations even when I’m not near being/I’m not on my period, but it doesn’t happen that often. And literally every single month I feel like I should end my own life. I can’t exactly say is it the result of being more sensitive/reactive than usually (because few days before my period, if I get upset, I WILL have suicidal thoughts) or is it a symptom on its own.
It’s really hard for me because I’m unbothered all the time and suddenly I’m 100% emotional and suicidal.
For example, I got my blood tested because I have a terrible brain fog, and I feel dead - pretty much symptoms of B12 deficiency. But everything is alright with my blood. When I saw the results I started crying because “I hate not knowing what is wrong with me and I should kill myself”.
Looking back on it, I don’t know what the fuck was I on.
I think that maybe my period being such a hard time for me is also somewhat related to me having ADHD (low estrogen = worse symptoms and one of symptoms of ADHD that I usually don’t have is being moody).
Anybody with this problem? What is going on?