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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/catsdontliftweights on 2023-07-28 17:19:06.
I tried posting this to another sub but it got removed. I wonder why?
My brother has hidden from the world his whole life. There is no reason for this, he doesn’t have a disability, he has not been diagnosed with anything, and he refuses therapy even when I pay. His lonely life is 100% his doing, he doesn’t have some special reason, he just never got over his fear of socializing so instead he stays at home with my parents. He has no excuse, myself and my cousins have invited him out with us many times and he always says no. Sometimes he’ll say yes and back down last minute, but he’s never gone out with us, not even once. He mostly just hung out with me or video games, but we never went to many places, usually just out to eat or a drive. I am the only person who knows my brother, even our parents barely know him.
But about 6-7 years ago he started falling into the dark online world of lonely men and the extreme alt-right. He has become a toxic and angry person, and a lot of that anger is directed at women and then directed at me since I’m the only one his age that he knows. He yells at me, gets in my face, he almost physically hurt me twice, and tried driving us off the road. He’s been saying awful racist, misogynistic, and homophobic things, and has become cruel to me especially because of my age.
I can’t do this anymore, he’s not the brother I used to have. Or maybe he’s always been like this, but I’ve had blinders on. When I look at him, all I see is a shell of anger, and envy when women being hurt are talked about, he is starting to scare me even though I always thought he couldn’t hurt a fly.
I’ve been debating this for months, but I’m ready to let him go. He’s gone, this dark online community has devoured him and he’s not coming back. He’s 43 and he’s done nothing with his life, he barely leaves my parent’s house, and now he’s chosen to do even less.
I joined Reddit to learn more about the inc*l community, and it’s shown me that my brother isn’t going to change. I’m just one person, online he has an army of anger and they only get more angry when you try to help them. But they don’t care about my brother as a person, they only care about his anger and if he wants to choose that over me then there’s nothing more I can do.
No one knows how far my brother has fallen except for me. My parents are having health issue and have held his hand throughout life like a baby, they have bigger blinders on than me. I haven’t told my friends or cousins about him in years and they never ask about him since he never wanted to be their friends. I’m also ashamed of what he’s become and ashamed because maybe I could have done more or noticed how bad it was sooner.
I will never see my brother again except for when our parents pass and we have to take care of that stuff. He doesn’t deserve a friend and a sister. I’ve always been there for him, but he abandoned me, and the dark web can have him.