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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/Few_Asparagus_6638 on 2023-07-27 12:58:16.
I’ve had a really hard time with therapy. I’ve been to so many professionals - some were too directive, others too passive and unstructured, still others too smug. But even the good ones were no good, because of how I react to humans. Meaning I get this feeling of being exposed, which leads me to want to hide. I can’t stop thinking about what the therapist is thinking about me, how I come across, etc., and so I’m always on edge, in performance mode.
I’ve realized that therapy is a relationship from which I cannot benefit much because I’m not in the right headspace and maybe even lack the awareness to know what I need. So I’m giving it up for now, to try and connect with myself without the added pressure of another human being watching me.
Someone in the adhd sub said they had great results with a self-guided app called Betwixt that uses an interactive narrative for self-reflection and personal discovery and I’m trying this at the moment. I really like the idea of being immersed in a fictional world and exploring myself as a character in a choose-your-own-adventure book, so I have high hopes for this. Has anyone had any experiences with this (or a similar) app or have you found other things that have worked for you - as alternatives to therapy or ways to make therapy work better for you?