A very well written post. I got my license and for over a decade was inactive. Some, not so good folks ridiculed me for wasting a license whereas there were others who helped me by loaning a radio, setting up an antenna at my QTH. Still, life happened and I couldn’t sustain. It was only last year when I started again. There was a lot of hesitation and I was indeed was afriad of making mistakes. I froze up during my first CW contact. I had decided to enjoy the hobby and that’s what I did. Getting on the air is key. Even with compromised setups, stuff works! 73 de VU2TUM