I believe you.

The experience has been very difficult for me to process. I try to remain objective. What was it? I don’t know. Was it alien? I don’t know. But I spent a great deal of time digging through UFO lore, was a regular at the Errol Bruce-Knapp UFO-Updates list where major figures like Stanton Friedman, Jerome Clark, Bruce Maccabee, Kevin Randle, and others posted. That was the best (highest S/N) public UFO forum I’ve seen. Far, far better than r/UFOs. And yet, there’s just so much disinfo and outright bullshit. Too many hucksters out for a buck. Too many sensationalist podcasts. Few people with real credentials willing to speak openly. There are a few. But not enough.