buddy bootstraps

it’s nothing to do with willpower in the year-long run - that’s the rationalization of “they do it to themselves, beats me”

it’s all to do with the habits and compensations of unfulfilled life situations. unsatisfied life situations will lead to screen abuse like this. it’s adding weight on my autistic loner ass, no amount of going out to meet people and pet dogs and willpowering through habits changes the grooves of that river. i’ve reached out to have a psychologist to analyze this in the meantime since writing: they immediatly bring up acceptance for the issue and begin by (with me) breaking down the needs involved with my screentime.

• calendar • notebooks, quick-info, diary • creative outlet notebook

then the chats and porn and videogames which are a longer haul to breakdown.

none of this willpowering thru- just writing that down to anyone stuck believing the advice of “just pull yourself up by the bootstraps.”

thank you, i got irritated, but make this constructive