Grief > rage > slamming hand into wall. Yesterday was not a good day. Today isn’t either.

I’ve found a very cheap secondhand Woods lamp online and am having it delivered to a friend so it doesn’t get stolen. Stubborn patches of vom are still glowing under the torch after being cleaned twice so I’ve applied the cleaner again. Maybe it’s because I rubbed excess off afterwards due to worrying about overwetting the carpet. It’s now been applied heavily and left to soak. But am wondering if it might be better to switch products. The pet shop ones are so powerfully overscented though. A very popular brand gave Melbcat asthma attacks and me headaches/migraines.

I’ve now found $20 and $30 microchip scanners online but don’t know how reliable they are. Or how reliable Sir Gadabout is either. Haven’t seen him. Maybe I should calm my farm though and come back to this when I’m feeling better. He probably doesn’t need help and is simply doing the rounds. And the recommended brand of scanner is expensive. I just don’t like him running around without knowing if he’s really ok, or him hunting birds. For now I just want to know if he’s chipped.