You’re not a fuckwit. You’re a very caring human. Here’s the thing, you can’t just stop eating meat or you’re gonna feel like shit. You gotta do it gradually. Get to know what your body needs and when it needs it. Going veggo means supplementing meat for other high protein foods especially if you are working out. There is nothing wrong with eating a small amount of meat at the start of your journey. Basically give yourself time to adjust.