Did you talk about this with your therapist? Bc you should.

My old therapist would refer to frustration as a resource we hoarde. We dump our frustration into a little water bottle, and when we’re not using adaptive coping mechanisms, we table it. But then later something frustrating happens (like your webcam experience), and though it is (truly) a minor setback, you’re stuck with this huge reaction. You got a stop hoarding your frustrations and learn to dump that water bottle out before it overflows.

This imagery is for me helpful because it helps me understand some disproportionate reactions I may have, and also quite clearly doesn’t shy away from negative emotion. Get angry, hell yeah. When it’s… Adaptive. This wasn’t adaptive.