i am still doing an assignment that was due a week ago. family is giving me a lot of shit for it and making me feel ashamed. lots of the whole “get a job” and “what have you contributed to this family?” talk and that i’m a loser. i am focusing on finishing this assignment tonight and going to apply for jobs so i’m not underemployed. i don’t know if i want to do this course anymore, or if i could take it on if i was actually treated for adhd. the dr said no stimulants, and i’m scared to try anymore meds. i’ve tried three different meds and none of them ‘worked’. this plus the itching that’s lasted for months. i wonder if it’s stress related. going to give it a couple more days of moisturising and see if it works. google says it’s a sign of cancer. of course it does.