This is almost exactly what brought me out of christianity. I was institutionalised into it from birth. So, I always just glossed over the most obvious problems that people would bring up. If anything, it entrenched me further.

However, I started realising that I had more love and compassion for people than, not just christians, god claims to have, by their own admission.

How can I love a stranger than an all loving God?

It was all downhill from there.