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daggermoon@lemmy.world 6 hours agoI’m not really sure what to say. I’ll say I know who I am, I know what I want, and I have no issue with being able to tell fantasy and reality apart. It was always an escape for me. As for trauma, I think I always dismissed it because I knew people who had it way, way worse and I didn’t think it was even a fair comparison. I am very depressed and the situation in my country has only made that worse. For me, the loneliness is probably the worst part. I don’t have any friends and I don’t really connect with my family. I am however here as you said, and I am aware of who I am. I don’t say any of this because I want anyone to feel sorry for me, It just helps me understand myself and the world better. Thank you.
sp3ctr4l@lemmy.dbzer0.com 6 hours ago
You don’t need to say anything, friend, just try and take care of yourself.
You sound … you remind me of me some years ago.
CPTSD, would be my guess, though I am obviously potentially projecting here… my guess is you’ve been surrounded by malignant narcissists, they’ve destroyed your conception of self worth and identity, nothing is ever good enough for them, and they never do any good for you that doesn’t come with many strings attached.
Either way, be my guess accurate or not: Your trauma is valid, you are valid, you may not believe it, but you are worthy of being loved, treated with basic decency.
Not that those things are guaranteed to you… but you are worth them, and people who do not give them to you are not worth your time or attention.
I would suggest you attempt to hold yourself to a basic light excercise routine as well as some kind of creative outlet hobby… draw, sing, make videos, write stories or analyses or code, grow a garden, learn to tailor or embroider or knit…
Hell, literally this morning I saw a 62 yo man sitting alone with a yo yo.
Turns out he’s quite good with that yo yo, and we got to talkin’, I remembered them from an old school assembly that started a yo yo craze.
Turns out he’s a cancer survivor, went through an absolute shit couple of years, chemo and saline all the time, no friends or family to really help out…
Doctors told him he had a year to live…
… 4 years ago.
Seems to be in full remission now, his blood work is incredible, doctors couldn’t believe it, and this guy, he’s a pretty chipper old fella if you just let him go on about his old jobs, his hobbies, his woes and his perspective.
Like him, and his yo yo, you can bounce back too.