I feel ya, I’m in the same place. Weed helps the rumination a lot but then I’m just high all the time and not really present. I decided to take a big step back from online messaging. Now I try to either text directly or do FaceTime. I dunno why, but, after basically needing Internet to live for 25 years, I just feel so ready to put it down now.
rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.world 2 days ago
Totally hear you man. I have spent so much time ruminating and it can certainly be frustrating, distracting, and unhelpful. I don’t smoke at the moment, which might be a blessing because I’ve found that I’ve been sort of forced to confront the way I feel about things I ruminate about. I’ve been journalling a lot, just to work through the thoughts.
Walking long distances is very therapeutic for me, allowing my mood to shift throughout the walk and letting me change focus, at times enjoying what I’m seeing externally and at others turning inwards and thinking through things that are bothering me or things that pop up in my mind. I feel more equipped and in touch with myself after a few months of really trying to face things, which is nice after years of drowning those feelings out with alcohol and whatever else I could get my hands on. I’m not all fixed up and in great mental shape, not by long shot, but I can tell for 100% certain that I’m much more stable. That’s what’s worked for me, at least!
I’m similar to you in wanting to move away from the “internet” at large. It sounds like you still appreciate the human connection though, which I also feel. For me, moving away from WhatsApp and Instagram have been I think largely because a lot of pain and discomfort has come through those platforms over the years, breakups and arguments and whatever else, and I just want a break. I don’t know if it’s the same for you.
I hope you find comfort and have a happy Sunday 🤞 Be well!