Im so sorry. I feel this too. I was always barked at sarcastically whenever I wanted anything for myself that would be nicer or make things easier, told ‘thats stupid’ or ‘it’s a waste’. Yet, this didn’t apply to my mother, she always had the nice things she wanted. If you tell this kind of story to a normal person, they think you’re being dramatic. But unless you’ve lived it, as a child you are constantly ground down every day, until you have no self worth, it won’t make sense.

So I’m grateful you share your stories, because it makes the world make sense. Makes me feel less alone in my experiences. And hooray for extra luggage, and finding little wins to escape the consequences of the drama.