You’re doing awesomely. Please don’t beat yourself up. Just think how many people you know that haven’t even got close to what you’ve already achieved? I get that it’s frustrating, heartbreaking even, but you’re learning so see it that way?

Circumstances can seriously impact you and that’s ok. I left my beloved bonchi (Bonzi Chilli) die because of real life circumstances for example. It happens, but then there’s next season!

No matter which you pick they probably won’t stick around, but they are truly machines that demolish aphids. Once their food is gone they will leave regardless unless you establish that full ecosystem which is hard. I’ve just had some of these move in on their own, have a few indoors too!

Just be warned that it means you’ll get more birds and spiders and then you’ll need to buy a lion to deal with those (obviously joking on the lion but it does escalate, beautifully, and you’re making a positive change to our shared environment).

You can also buy permanent insect homes for things to just move in one their own :)