I mean this as a kind gesture, I think you should seek therapy. A lot of your question posts are quite out there and don’t seem very healthy. I know therapy helped me! :)

I will comment on one point in your post because I think it’s worth saying. Everything is political, so not caring only really shows your own privilege. But on the other hand it’s easy to get overwhelmed but the state of the world especially in the US and be exhausted from consuming depressing political news. There must be a healthy middle ground between knowing what’s right and moral and not allowing it to cause your inner world to become a mess.

I and probably most online leftist certainly struggle with this.