Comment on Daily Discussion Thread: Wednesday 19th February 2025

Llabyrinthine@aussie.zone ⁨3⁩ ⁨days⁩ ago

Ugh… Reality is creeping in. I was somewhat positive for T1 this year in my attempts to turn it all around and make up for my garbage performance since day one (years ago) of this hell I signed up for…

Nope. Gave myself massive overwhelm yesterday which I always find weirdly fascinating. I mean I’ve been all manners of stressed yayaya (for periods of time) over this years over different things that I associated with just being me. That constant hyper alertness which I always just put down to the good old highly strung, (yep, RIP amygdala), you know SOP (which becomes one of those horrible self-perpetuating things). Sorry, brain dump, back to the overwhelm… which doesn’t usually get to that point or happen very often.

I just wonder about it though… I used to think it was mainly contained in the echo in my skull, but these days flight just feels so visceral. A real, strong physical gut feeling, I don’t want to do that. They say you can’t always believe the story your mind tells you, and I tend to think (like my great procrastination skills) I make a mountain out of mole hill, start doing it, and yeah, it’s never that bad or I should have started/done this earlier.

Looks like I might be back to cold water/partial icing the way I’m going.

Okay, partial meltdown and being overly dramatic in progress. Moving along. Nothing else to see here…

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