This is the mid-to-final stage in the family trauma galaxy-brain meme:

1. I’m screwed up, and it’s my fault
2. I’m screwed up and it’s my family’s fault
3. My family screwed me up because they’re also screwed up
4. My family screwed itself up, from long before I was born
5. If I stick around, I’m gonna get more screwed up

Also, if you look around and think about it, you may be able to identify which family members are practicing limited/no contact. They may be screwed up too, but at least they’re aware of it.